YouTube - O.A.R. "Shattered"

 

You know you love me....XOXO

Ok!!the title is not a hint on anyone.It's a beginning of GOSSIP GIRL..yeah,I know!!Im watching that teen show BUT hey,it does hooked me every night.I sleep late..as late as 5 plus or 6plus even..am.Sigh,one of e nights,was channel surfing...and yup,the rest cant be undone.The music is GOOD!!..There's deerheart-Breakdown/Oar-Shattered/Mika-Happy Ending/Maroon 5-goodnight goodnight.

there's this serena and dan character>>they r on and off the set couple.Gosh i even youtube them..I gotta STOP!!
(zai or nora,if u r readin this...pls help me out of this GG zone!!)
Anyway,i like the lyrics of the Goodnight Goodnight song...here's some

"Goodnight Goodnight"

You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together

I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better

Something’s gotta changeThings cannot stay the same

Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger

Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior

Something’s gotta changeIt must be rearranged,

ohI’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl

It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world

So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnightGoodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnightGoodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah

PS:Im gg for my trip next sunday......

I wish it were SIMPLE......

All the muscles tighten in her face,Buries her soul in one embrace,

They're one and the same

Just like water
Then the fire fades away

But most of everyday

Is full of tired excuses

But it's too hard to say

I wish it were simple

But we give up easily

You're close enough to see that

You're.... the other side of the worldto me

On comes the panic light

Holding on with fingersand feelings alike

But the time has come..To move along

Can you help me?Can you let me go

And can you still love me....When you can't see me anymore

*why begin when we(the lovers out there) all know that it will end?So i rather dont begin at all*

What makes me happy........?

Am i happier as a child?......im happier when im at my teens?check that..i dont have a deprived childhood.hmmm,am i happier when im into working life??GOSH...i be glad to stay as a kid typing my thoughts out!!oK...IM NO ESCAPIST...face the world huh??

Tonight is a miss ppl nights>>>I miss my buddy of 10 years(im gonna sort things out with her)

I miss my grandma>>at times when i get home high or drunk(trying to act normal as i walk in the room)..i felt like someone watchin from the hall!!arrrrrrrrrgh,no scary thoughts here!I just felt..not sight.

I miss these ppl ..(an aka mentek)...adlin aka muk or I LOVE GIRLS and my dad.He may not be a good husband or a good father but he is my friend::::he's a funny guy.

I miss drinkin wine (with fav ppl of cos).There's category in yr grps of friends.U cant mix them all together and hopefully they can connect.OH..COME ON!!

This remind me of a song>>JON secada-IF you go

Taking a day at a time

Dealing with feelings I don't wanna hide

Learning to love as I go, baby

Without taking you along for a ride.Tried to find myself

Tried to find the truthGet out from this shell

Girl I'm almost there

To show you how much I really care.

Snowglobe and etc

walking ard in the east part of singapore thru the malls...la la la,saw a trolley with snowglobes!..They having a sale on that..got it for $1.95.N yup,of cos i got it to add to my room.I always wanted one but then it's either too big or too small or the decoration in the globe is not to my taste.I have re-arrange my room furniture.What a sweat!...and some sneezing.My nose cant take dusts..loads of them.

WATER LIGHTER

One of the nights im working,im abt to go for for my smoke break when i realise hey,i left my ligther @ home.I bump into this uncle(of cos when u r a smoker,u have the smoker's radar where u can guess who's a smokeer)...and i ask him,"uncle,u have ligther? with my hand doin the lighter light up gesture".The uncle replied.."have ,have"..i have water lighter.Then I give him a "yeah i know that"..i said uncle,ligther ..not water lighter!He said ya la..i have lighter,only water lighter.-dirty minded uncles we have here!-piss off and i walk away into the restaurant back(of cos not smoking)

Tea aunties

Im working at this german rest in siglap(where it is a family restaurant business).The aunties that work there have been helpin with business for years now.They r the ones who keep brewing teas..any kinds of tea,u name it!we....esp me(the barperson)will get to drink it.The teas taste good ...natural sweetness in the pot.The aunts will buy good grade flowers..brew it.There!,u got a good home made tea..to cool yrself down.Wonder wat is brewin today?

Songs in my recently added(i like it)

proud-heather small
the escapist-the streets
thinking of you-kate perry
naked as we came-iron and wine
a sorta fairytale-tori amos
caught by the river-doves

Long weekend ahead........Endurance'

-Always talking about what u got,u know guys>>u got to stop.
Then again,freedom of speech.Im so exhausted this week(with a mix of fun and sweat).Work between 2 places is NO JOKE.i TRULY admire those uncles/aunties/pakcik and makcik(which include my beloved mom and aunt) who r still workin at their age.Im so so sorry to my 2 beloved women in my life that u guys still workin.My bad!i haD fun till i put aside this simple yet big action>RESPONSIBILITY.not too late ladies.Im workin on it!those times when all i did was playing soccer ..soccer..travelling...dont care on catchin up with studies and etc.Thanks to their patience all these while.(JUS DID a quiz on facebk>>what job are u born for?the result is a councillor!Gosh...so not me!
k..im gonna rest my small eyes.To the 2nd week of april'

qoute of the week:When i hear somebody says"Life is hard!",i am always tempted 2 ask-"compared to what?"

What have you done today to make you feel proud?

April's ambitions..........n onwards

Im feeling all hype up.Feeling fresher that the last few weeks.I have to say kicking about(soccer) does make me feel re -energized.I miss those days when i can run laps aft laps and not pant as much as NOW!!well...age is catching up.
N im proud that im clean and sober.I do miss having the "stoned" feeling,minds broaden to the effects on it,well..things got to stop for the better.It's for recreational now.At least i want it that way.Things make me high now is Green t frapp..makes me smile drinkin it,weirdo!

And i have to say thanks to jay(the owner of FOU defafa) for giving me the chance to work with her and the team.I am definitely am gettin the bike lesson.Watch this space.It take loonger ...at least i did not give it up.Song of the month>>Proud by heather small..insipiration song to kick me up and up and up'Cheers guys!OOO..and be friends with younger ppl doesnt make me kiddy..they inject a dose of freshness in me.Im kiddy myself though.Thanks to the kiddos.

Still so many answers I don't knowRealise that to question is how we grow

So I step out of the ordinaryI can feel my soul ascendingI am on my way

Can't stop me now And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?It's never too late to try

What have you done today to make you feel proud?You could be so many people

If you make that break for freedom...What have you done today to make you feel proud??